the new beginning..

hurm,
registered for my degree tis morning..
altho i'm not exanctly excited bout it..
but hell, this is my fricking choice..
like it or not, i have to live with it..
makes me wonder why i make the choice at the first place..
hikhik..

apparently, for the last few months,
i have been starting a network of enemies rather than friends network..
i dunno why larr.. maybe all those times spent at home,
somehow is messing my brain.. BIG TIME!!

i'm never actually someone that knows how to keep friends..
i'm so used to walking away from friendships+relationships in my past,
that i'm no longer eager or looking forward to keep the new-found friendship i have over the years..
then, somehow, i felt kinda lonely and needed companionship..
silly me isn't it?
i knew i needed my friends..
but i just acted like i don't needed them..
i'm in a heavy battle with myself..
a battle that has been goin on for years..

i think i need a therapist..
hikhik..